I am so miserable. We went to bruch today for my friend's birthday, and I decided that since I had been really good all last week, and have another 5 days before the surgery, that I was going to just eat what I wanted for lunch. Now there were things on the menu that I could have had and stayed pretty much on my diet. But I didn't choose any of those. I had a plate full of food, and the only thing there I was allowed to eat was the eggs. And I ate every single bite. All of it. Including a bite of the cheesecake the waiter brought to our birthday girl. And now I am miserable. My tummy hurts...I'm a little nauseous...and I'm disappointed in myself. One good thing that came out of this though, is that I never want to eat like that again. No one person should ever eat that much food.
It amazes me how much of our lives revolve around food. We meet for lunch, for drinks, for dinner...get togethers and parties always include food...even phrases we use every day are about food (couch potato, veg out). This will be the hardest thing for me to adjust too I think...that my world will no longer revolve around food. Food needs to become, for me, just something I need to do to maintain my health, just like brushing my teeth or clipping my toenails. I need to learn that there are so many more things in life than food, and that all social occasions need not be about food.
Does this mean I won't meet my friends for dinner anymore? No, of course not. It just means that I will have to find a way to look forward to spending time with my friends rather than looking forward to what I can eat.
I think this will open up a whole new world for me!
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